I am confused - 2

Nowadays, I have been twitting non-stop. I just have too many things to say that I couldn't express all out! I have to write it some where. I had been doing my story lately too. I kinda like typing things now, maybe if I type more thing, I might forget about you. Things ain't easy like some of those girls. I wonder how other girls can still be friends with guys that rejected them or broke up with them. Are they that despo?

Played basketball with Jobless Looney, Doorman and Kyle today. Playing sports is the second thing that kept me busy and make me stop thinking about you. Besides, it helps me get more oxygen into my brain since nowadays I haven't been sleeping well. Doorman and Jobless Looney made such a great team. As you know Doorman liked Jobless Looney, so this is his chance to get close to her. She doesn't seemed to bother, so I'm happy for them (: really.

But their relationship as friends made me wonder about you and me. During assembly, when Apple asked Kyle to tie my tie, you were just looking. Any reactions? Any jealousy occurred? Nothing? As I suspected. Plan A failed. But I wonder WHY, Jobless Looney talked to you? Doesn't she know that I'm trying my best to forget you and why must she kept talking to you like normal? Trying to make me jealous?! Well, she did it! FUCK.

Maybe she would like it if I talked to HER crush so nicely. Of course she wouldn't, no girls want that! Why are my best friends so close to you but I am not? Why must it be so hard just to say HI to you?